EMO TUESDAY:

dearest michelle,
i reallie do miss you. everything i said to you is everything i meant. with every word that i said was nothing but sincere. after the broke up, i wish for every bit of chance of becoming together and of cusx hope and wish as each day pass by me still. so far its pretty normal. i'm reallie upset but all i could do is to fake a smile
its tired to put on a big fake smile infront of the many people that am facing everyday knowing that deep down in me i have a deep scar which is unreplaceable. i cant forget the pain nor ignore it. its just too heavy and it comes to my mind that knowing i lost you. the thoughs of not becoming together again brought me to tears.
the past with you was nothing but total sweetness. now, its all the bitter days coming back to me. i stare blankly at the empty spaces pretending that your prescene are still around but when it comes to reality, it just fades away like how dust got itself dust off. if by having you back can cost me not being a rockstar. i will do it. cusx that i know, being a rockstar is something i want. but not having you is something i couldnt live with. as the saying goes 'dont live with someone that you can live with, live with someone that you cant live without with.'
it brought us to tears like how a star falls on its point. having a star to light its easy but having a wishing star to grant us its hard. i'm working towards it though i know it might sound foolish but hey to me, its reallie worth it though you might think its not. time will change a different thinking for our elderly and seniors. days where our sparks sparkled was reallie the day i will remember even if its my after life. technology isnt that kind to create a time-machine. if so, i would want to go back to the time where we were smiling sweetly to each other looking up ahead at the tall buildings with a warming atmosphere of that place where i brought you to before when we were together.