FRYDAY:

hello mr friday and my blog. yesyes i didnt had my attendance taken in this blog for quite sometime cusx i broke up with my girlfriend. which reallie upsets me until now. am still missing her alot and the feelings are still with me. no, nothings gonna change. maybe am stubborn or whatsoever but still waiting its not a problem. i darnoe how it got so bad. its weird, its creepy, its sad, its devastating, its more than a pain whereby words cant be describe.
i went for this weird audition at ite bishan without any preparations and its about how the way you talk. its more like testing you english i think. so i went to there and not knowing wheres the class so i try my luck by walking round and round and finding for direction and all. lucky my friend, sam, called me. phew. save my trouble. so we went in the room knowing that the bloody air con is not working. so of cusx we sweat as if we were having our p.e. i didnt know the judge was evelyn from kids central until she shook my hand and told me her name. i was like 'eh? that voice. i heard it at home before.... OH!!!' haha. but that doesn't mean we are on kid's show.
we then shift to another room due to those wreck air con so yeaps. this where it all started. THE AUDITION. i was sitting there and waiting for the names to call out and guess what? am the first one to be audi-ed. first one with no preparation or whatsoever. so at first i was looking at my tiny script (so what if its a script? i wrote nonsense in there. hahaha.) finding the first point then i was like 'ah heck it. i shall think and speak. so much better.' then i talk about music like punk, pop punk, hardcore and metal. but when i speak i didnt mention all the above! instead i mention emo and screamo than hardcore and metal. cusx i wrote on the paper for hardcore slipknot and dark tranquility then when i speak is saosin and matchbook romance which is not hardcore. hahaha
oh wells. today was pretty tired. my head is still spinning the thoughts of her. 3 days had pass and am still the same and its going nowhere but inside me. forget reality waking up is hard to do!

- i end up knowing i was all alone again in the boulevard of </3, nothing else could ever be so clear since you were gone and just for one day i wish i could disappear... -