back to 1990s.

after spending so much of my time to find a certain music from this game final fantasy 8 ( i seriously do not know why am i finding it's soundtrack), i came to realize how much i missed my younger days where everyone is crazy over playstation games, checking whether is there a cheat for final fantasy games, competing with each other who's gonna complete the game first and all. i really do miss those times. every morning i will on my playstation and just play final fantasy series. both 7 and 8 that is. purchasing their guide book to totally beat the game but as you grew older you somehow overlook at things.

you tend to think about the future most of the time and forgetting the things you used to do during your younger days. is it the culture that we're living in made us this way? i always have this slight envious over kids having their fun among their friends. i remembered staying home alone when i was in primary school was a horror to me. i always have a hard time surviving in the morning, waiting for my dad to come home pick me up to school but always ended up being scolded whenever i requested to go to my granny's place.

have you thought about what i've been always thinking? during our parents time, their parents who are our grandparents now, i darnoe whether is it a trend or a-something-you-should-do kinda thing that they always have this mass production of birth. having a ratio of daughters and sons like 5 : 4. you may think why is there a need to give birth to so many?! i often thought to myself about this matter some times ago. probably back then, standard of living isnt that high which is true but think again, what they did benefit us somehow. i realize having lotsa uncle and relatives is something good. very good to be frank. but now the modern era do not have the privilege of having a mass production due to the standard of living in singapore.

so maybe you can start thinking that your future grandchildren might only have a few uncles and aunties, which is very actually. i can say i'm thankful to be born at the late 80s. to enjoy certain things that i know in the future, you can't have it back again. i seriously think that we humans are too occupied by our daily work. just look at how many years education occupied our lives?! probably 2 decades. thats 1/3 of your life. then by 2/3 will be your live in society and when it comes to 3/3, thats where you meet your maker.

its 330am and am jumping into my bed already.
goodnight and morning.