hellos. its around 0210 haha and i'm updating my poor little blog that haven't been updated for weeks already. well, things seems to be draggy for me this week. i darnoe when is my course starting because from what i heard from my superior that my course will start VERY soon. thats what he claimed. but still in the end am doing nothing. i think when my course start that will be around august and by the time my course end it will be the ending of this year haha. yes i know lotsa people telling me that am leading a very extraordinary life in national service. i think my typing speed kinda increase a little all thanks to the daily practise that i got haha.

you know, my superior just deduct my leave LIKE THAT! cusx that day he called back to camp and instructed 1 of my collegue to grant me a half-day leave. its like oh man how can you deduct my leave just like that. well am not surprise either. i got quite alot of leave thats why maybe its attractive enough for him to deduct. you are entitle to your leave and yet peopel can still disturb your leave. what entitlement is that?

well having a leave on that day wasnt that bad after all. i went to this music company and tested out some REALLY REALLY good guitars. it gets better and better after each one i tried. my gosh. not forgetting the price as well that it gets higher and higher. tsktsk. i saw the guitar that i always wanted. goodness me, its a fender telecaster with just 1 pickup but the sound is not as impressive as gibson les paul. my gosh. the range of price is so darn different larhs. its around like almost reaching 3k. yeah thats about it. that fender telecaster... its gonna be my somehow.

oh yarrhs i realise something. its reallie beautiful when its past midnight. as in the enviroment and all. i did try something weird yesterday and yeah it ended up the kinda atmosphere that reallie suits the night. sounds reallie crazy haha and no am not gonna share it cusx it sounds reallie reallie crazy. anyways, i've just recieve a news that one of my friend's dad passed away. sheesh. horrible case you could ever encounter.

oh man i feel like dozing off but my room is occupied by mahjong players. i think i should make this a long entry. since i think i wont be blogging the next darnoe how many weeks so yeah might as well just blog as many as i can.

i wish that i could translate yesterday to you.
but its words that we all forgot.
i won't wage war.
are your intentions a fake?
i will find my world a way.
thanks for breaking me.
constant console.
i'm barely awake as you wave goodbye.
your waves ripped right through me.
awkward silence drives me crazy.
tears are meant to be cold and sad.
i'll keep my room open till sun rise for you.
and keep my eyes focus patiently on you.
if all these aren't real.
make me believe them.
times will be hard.
but am there to help you with my guitar.
a thousand miles may seem so far.
but they've got planes, trains and car,
or walk to you with i've got no other way.

come to think about the future, sometimes it reallie do kinda freak me out cusx so far i haven't plan anything for it. maybe thats the cause of those shivers when i thought about the future not knowing what will i be doing or whatsoever. complicated huh? life is as depress as it seems. a story that never seems to have the ending but only an awful start and sorrowful body verse. it seems for what i forsee is reallie happening. well hopefully things will work out between my good friendo and me. a friend that i can never loose nor let it slip through my fingers and never come back. no thats not gonna happen. somehow i wish those dreams can reallie come back and haunt me. ba forget it. lady luck was never at my side.