a week to HATE!

it went so wrong for the whole of this week! i hit on luck that scums the shit out of me. the faith in my religion starts to dry up. i dont know what went wrong and i have no ideal why are there so many of "scene" happening to me.

firstly i got myself booking in on a saturday night. not knowing whose on duty for the month of june. so yeah. book in on a saturday night and chill with my friends in camp and headed off to pasir laba camp on a live firing detail. the bad thing is am the i/c for the entire event and i screwed up pretty badly. i was in the live firing area and my superior called me to tell me am suppose to be on duty the day when am on the live firing detail. HOW THE HECK DID YOU BECOME A SUPERIOR?! NOT PLANNING A PROPER DUTY FORECAST AND JUST DO YOUR RANDOM CALLS ON PEOPLE AND TELLING THEM A LAST MINUTE DUTY THING!? YOU HAD SO MUCH FUCKING TIME IN MALAYSIA AND YET YOU DO SHIT ABOUT IT AND JUST USE YOUR BITCHARSE MOUTH TO DO THE JOB?! i was even more furious when he said i cant claim my off.

if you wanna play punk with me, its easy for me. since am on duty on sunday and i have to go for a live firing detail which require me to book in on a saturday night, i can just not go to the detail and you still have to get a last minute replacement for me. i came back around 1230am on that sunday and slept around 2am after returning all the stores and woke up 7am to get ready for fall in. BITCH! 5 hours of sleep! then the day i went for off, i have to book in the very same night for a super early detail. hello? i havent had a muthafucking proper and you still put my name on a super early detail. then i was dead sleepy when am driving the damn tonner. i blindly beat a red traffic light 2 times, graze and mounted curb at places that i never will mount and graze. then i recieve a call saying the vehicle that i drove on sunday, the side window had a spiderweb crack! OH HOLY FUCK! everything just come in a wave! then when i got back to camp everyone was asking whats up with me. prepare to face the music. fuck me, fuck this. AH! WHATEVER IT IS LARH!

i saw my superior awaiting for me in 1 of the parking lot then went up to him about the stuff he want to say to me. he then ask me go see the window and the thing is you cant see any crack from the outside but once you head in to the vehicle is like, "OH SHIT! METEOR DID LAND IN MY VEHICLE!" i was pretty amazed by the crack and my superior asked me this question. "Javan, you realise something is not right? you are always on headline news this few days. dont you think its pretty fishing? something is wrong?" oh fuck. tell me more about it. i havent been sleeping for the past 4 days and constantly driving. i do breathe, i do eat and i work by electricity. am not a robo for god sake. gimme a fucking break!!!! AHH!!!

its so unlike for me to hit on such stuff. the work i've done never been so fuck up before. bitch. anyone could see it! its so obvious something is not wrong and dont go asking me why cause if i knew i would have solve it by now! AH!

sorry for the vulgarities.
ok.
bye.